Hope Against Hope from Joana's Diary

04/09/2014 

Dear Diary,

Suddenly undraped from the cape of parental care

At the age of 18, from a world which was far from here

I had just moved into the space that was different in its own way

People said this new world had feline claws

To save myself, I must be cautious, I must be careful, at times I must pause

I thus pushed this insight in the recurring thought box of the brain

So that the habit shall keep reminding me from what I must abstain

The new world had men, who were always hinted as the biggest dark side,

Back home, my dad and my brother were the only males I could confide

However this new world had so many men

As colleagues, as professors,

Some even got an alibi to be my friends

Sometimes the stories of the dark side molesting other women would resound in my mind like chimes

And hence the recurring thought box tried to bang my brain so many times

Especially when a friend would drop me home

Or when a colleague tried to be nice to me

Also, when the first spring of infatuation for a friend had spur

But now, I somehow started trusting the dark side

May be this world was not as dimmed as my mother thought

May be the world I had, was different from what my mother had got

I wish I could tell all this to mom

But may be saying things like this is not really the norm

Today,I have decided to shut the recurring box once for all

To not make baseless perceptions by just reading inscriptions from an age old wall

Right now, the recurring box has been kept away

Only to see the world from an impartial eye,

hope it’s an ending that does not get dismissed in dismay :)